United Kingdom/SE England Warmth & Connection inside Fall.

[Calen]

Here we are again, a cozy Sunday morning, sunlight streaming in my window, the warmth of which contrasts with the fall chill in the air. A warm cup of chamomile and my thoughts straying while working.

I find myself back in England, adjusting to the slower pace of the season. Moving more inward from reflection, taking more time for rest and recovery while still pushing ahead with my ambitions. The idea of ANR is like a lovely glowing ball of light inside a 3-dimensional spider’s web. Perhaps the perfect person is waiting just around the corner, and all of the future paths of this timeline would shift around this moment and time.

It feels like this would be the point in the personal where I’d sell myself to you. “Sell me this pen.” And, for the right person, I’d be very much enamoured with the idea of our potential connection. At the same time, I’m also happy, content. Life is good. I’m looking for much the same vibe in whomever I connect with. Someone who doesn’t need me in their life to be happy, but is much happier by proxy of my existence. A potential deep emotional connection that brings joy, love, laughter, affection, and warmth, but if it were to fade, wouldn’t bring destruction and despair.

If the universe deigns to have someone special reading this – I like to learn the little things. Hear the stories you were too shy to share with anyone else, see the way your eyes crinkle when you share something that genuinely makes you happy, create a meal together from what we have at home in such a unique way we ponder if anyone else has ever tasted what we’re experiencing. Someone who enjoys the life and beauty of this world – someone who would share themselves with me – the softness of your chest, the joy of your embrace, the same way that I’d share my joys and passions with you.

I work in Tech (so generic), even though I trained as a psychoanalyst. I’m a neurodivergent hobbyist, currently brushing back towards web development, expanding my breadth of electrical engineering with a mild emphasis on off-grid survival (electric power from recycled electronics and efficient purification of rainwater). I’ve temporarily switched from Muay Thai to boxing; I model from time to time, and I’ve gotten back into sprinting, which just feels incredible both physically and for mental well-being.

I don’t have a perfect person; I have a vibe. If my writing makes you feel something – even mild curiosity- please do get in touch. I really love to receive detailed messages, especially when they talk about who you are and what you’re looking for. I will say that if your intention is to use this site to find a boyfriend/husband and ANR is a side component, and if the desire to find someone is particularly urgent/intense, I am probably not for you.

I’m enjoying listening to this while working and writing. Maybe it will make your day better too: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53SttwE7sxg&list=RD53SttwE7sxg&start_radio=1

Warm regards,

C

[Sparkling 💎]

I always enjoy reading your posts. Right now it’s pitch dark here in New England and I was thinking to myself why did I not appreciate it when it was light out earlier and I could go out to walk when I felt like it.

After reading your post, I am also in a mood for reflecting. I try to assess internally my feelings and why I am being so “me” and I realize that getting up early leaves my brain in a very nice state of mind.. also having my breasts attended to which relaxes my whole body.

These are things one could get addicted to.. the finest pleasures of one’s existence.. maybe that’s why we need it physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Mentally and financially we might be in a great place but the human being also needs that physical touch to really feel extra special. The skin is also the largest immune and sensory organ and it’s very sensual for that reason (for me) to feel and give touch as a form of therapy. Plus the softness of a breast is a loving thing one can offer another fellow being (to those that respect the offer and don’t spoil it by being self centered etc).

Other than those words.. I have a fun day planned but it’s not light out yet .. I am more energetic in the mornings and hope to get the day going but can’t so I am sitting here writing this long reply to you :-). Once it gets light out, I will be driving through New Hampshire and Vermont to see the spectacular fall colors up in Conway.

It should be a great day. I wish you fun as you work in London. Do keep sharing your thoughts as you definitely have at least one reader 🙂 who also likes to articulate her thoughts and many times gets into trouble for it. 🙂

[Calen]

Aww thank you so much Sparkling. If you want a feeling of warmth as the sun slowly rises, you probably have everything you need (with perhaps minor substitutes) to make this. Bonus points – It’ll make your home smell amazing.

https://www.thepioneerwoman.com/food-cooking/recipes/a44735780/apple-cinnamon-oatmeal-recipe/

I personally disagree with their thoughts on milk. I stew the apples separately, and make the oats with a combination of whole milk, water, honey and perhaps a bit of brown sugar & cinnamon.

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