Damn how i crave a bond with a older mature woman

Well ive posted before with zero luck . I guess this will be a venting post / or maybe catch the attention of someone . Im 43 and for as long as i remember ive been attracted to older mature women . Ive nursed from women my age or a bit younger and there just doesnt seem to be that bind there that im seeking . For me what does it is having that someone who is mature and nurturing ( mom son type bond ) …. Not sure if that makes sense . Older women are well spoken , nurturing , loyal , caring , experienced . Damn i need that